I know I'm supposed to be doing my work, but I can't think of what I want to write for my proposal, ugh.

Anyway, I GOT DAMN LUCKY TODAY.

If not for the fact that Faith said she wanted to go to the library...
If not for the fact that Deborah was looking for books for her assignment...
If not for the fact that I was bored and so we started talking about our assignments...
If not for the fact that Deborah has a really extensive network of friends... (in other words, she "好友满天下" *ahem, Carlsberg ad*)

I WOULD HAVE BEEN DAMN SCREWED BECAUSE I DIDN'T REALISE THAT I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE ON THURSDAY.

...THANK YOU GOD. Seriously.

I don't know, but I'm really quite thankful for them. As well as for my other friends in school. I was initially kinda worried that I'll be lonely this semester since I usually hang out with Belle and Nat in school. And since Nat is away in Korea this semester, plus I only see Belle every Wednesday, I was all expecting to, LOL, tough it out alone. But I realised that there are really nice people in school who would help me to take handouts/notes when I'm not in class (when I didn't even expect them to, 'cause honestly, they're not obliged to do that), include me in stuff, sit with me in lectures, etc etc. Basically, BEING FRIENDS WITH ME. I don't think I'm the friendliest person ever, especially when I just get to know someone or if I feel intimidated, so I'm grateful for all these people. (:

Now before I know it, semester is almost over. Just...5 more weeks or so? If I didn't count wrongly. LOL. I don't care if I sound like a freak or something, but I'm not very used to people being so nice to me (in fact I'll get kinda awkward because I don't quite know how I should express my appreciation, like, should I just say thanks and move on..or..what?), so I get all 'awwww....' or 'OMG THAT'S SO NICE OF YOU' when someone does nice things for me. So... please pardon me for this. T_T

You know how some people will just disappear from your life after the semester is over and you're not taking anymore classes together? I'm actually hoping that I'll still stay friends with them. <333 (OKAY NOW, SOMEONE NEEDS TO TEACH ME HOW TO MAKE THAT HEART SHAPE THING THAT EVERYONE DOES. /NOOB)

IT'S THE RECESS WEEK! I wanted to update about the last day of school before recess week, because it was just so 'eventful', but was too caught up in doing other stuff. But here it is, my Friday:

( my friday )

I thought my recess week will be damn free, but now I look at my schedule, not really. ): I've got 3 SF meetings on Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Marketing meeting on Tuesday. And I need to do my Spanish assignment, start on my HL304 essay, hopefully catch up a little on my readings (though I am doubting this will happen), do whatever I need to for marketing, and all these while there will definitely be event stuff to settle. I thought I will be quite free, damn it.

Anyway, I decided to reject the INSTEP offer to Monterrey. For those interested, and are still reading this long, mundane post...I turned it down mainly because I don't think I should be spending 10k on somewhere that I only don't mind going, and not absolutely dying to go. (Yes, I can't deal with that idea.) Since 10k is a big amount to me and my family. If I want to try paying for myself, I don't know how I'm going to raise 10k in these 3 months. (Maybe I should apply to get money from my event. HAHHAHA.) And it doesn't feel right to ask my parents to pay the bulk of it when its a luxury for myself. Yes, I know its a rare opportunity and everything, but 机会是自己找的, opportunities can be created, so if I really want to go somewhere, I think I'll just find a way in the future. And if my GPA doesn't fall, I can still try to apply for somewhere less expensive (and I would have saved up more by then, I hope) next semester right?

Also, my dad says he will only let me go if there is someone else going. But like, WTH? How would I know who is going? And his reason is that Mexico is quite dangerous now. Okay, the whole world is saying that. BAH.

And this means that I can actually do things that I want during my 3 months holidays instead of trying desperately to find a job that pays well. Yay. Japanese lessons, anyone?

You might have realised that I haven't talked about school ever since the new semester started (1 week plus now?), because honestly speaking, its so much more depressing as compared to last semester. For one, I haven't completed any readings yet because I'm just trying to...do a million and one things at one go, and I don't think I'm a pro at multi-tasking. Instead of coming back from the holidays feeling all recharged, I feel even more tired, both physically and mentally. Its the feeling of never-ending work (No, I don't mean for my modules. Not yet anyway. LOL.) and the possibility of screwing things up (WHICH HAS ALR HAPPENED) that's making me unhappy. Can't wait for this semester to be over more than anything. And it has only just started. I need to start on my school work, I don't want my grades to slip. ): And furthermore, I kind of like my modules this semester (despite whatever complaints I might have), so I really want to go get into the momentum of reading.

And OMG. Today was like, the longest day ever. I SWEAR. Going school early in the morning to catch a film for HL304 class, which was in the afternoon, WAS A BAD IDEA. Seriously. Nat, next time we watch on Tuesday okay! And today's class felt like the longest class ever too. I have no idea why. The tutor showed many clips, and I think me and Kat were like, braindead from the lack of sleep, that after a while we just cannot remember which clip was from which film. Lecture part felt too rushed, tutorial part felt damn slow and long. LOL. We should probably get our sleep to feel normal again. I like the lecture's content though. I thought it was interesting. (: After the SF meeting, I was just...gone already. I had to force my eyes like O_O so that I won't look like a zombie.

OH, AND COMPETITION IS STIFF FOR THE APPLICATION OF STUDENT EXCHANGE. ): The coordinator's words keep haunting me: "70% of you won't be able to go anywhere..."

I can't believe I'm saying this, but I'm actually glad that I was at Orchard tonight. I met up with Janesa just now to see Nat carol... Yes we are such great friends. *does the fist to heart action to Nat* HAHAHAA. Anyway, I said that I was glad because...it was nice to walk down Orchard Road and see people carolling, taking pictures, giving out stuff. Its like, wow, Christmas is really here. (: For years, I avoided Orchard Road like the plague whenever Christmas draws near because I don't like squeezing with a bunch of people. So even though I complained just now to Janesa about the throngs of shopping crowd and whatever people there, now I know why people still choose to go Orchard even when its damn crowded. Of course, I'm not saying that I'll happily go Orchard again tomorrow night or on Christmas itself, because...the crowd still gets to me and I'm afraid that I'll commit a crime in the heat of the moment... LOL. Maybe next year, nearing Christmas again. (:

Which reminds me. Christmas is in two days, and so far I've only written like, 4 cards? LOL. So I guess I'll pass the cards personally to those that I'll be seeing soon. Sorry, no snail mail this year for you people!

*****

This month saw me stepping into the cinema more regularly again! The Day The Earth Stood Still was alright, I suppose. But with so many sci-fi/aliens/reminder-about-our-environment sort of movies that...I don't know, this one doesn't particularly make a strong impression. It was not bad though, just...not impressive/memorable. Twilight was LOL. Especially when Edward Cullen looked like he wanted to puke after seeing Bella for the first time. I laughed so hard, omg. And their dialogue is actually quite funny as well. There was one line that was so cheesy that I'll probably remember it for life. Edward said to Bella, "You're like a drug to me. Like my own personal brand of heroine." AHAHAHA. Alright, I won't even talk about the characters because how the actors want to portray their character might be different and...I don't blame them if they're different from my own impressions. But it was definitely draggy at some parts. Like a taiwanese drama. LOL. And no, I didn't like it. I rather enjoyed Ip Man! (: I thought Donnie Yen did a good job. Of course, it would be better if they let the audience know more the Wing Chun moves. 'Cause it focuses more on the story and the Sino-Japanese war instead, which might have neglected the kungfu a bit. But a lot of action, so it was good enough. (: Now I can't wait to watch Australia. Don't know if I'll get to watch on Saturday.

*****

The holidays is just left with 1 week and a half. I haven't even done much. I saw more of XJ and the rest...that's good. I could wake up at whatever time I like...that's good too. But I keep feeling like I still have things left undone for my CCA, which is true, but it just feels like its never-ending. I'm not complaining. No, Kat, I'm really not. 'Cause I really want our event to work too. So I will try to do what I can for my part. But I am hoping that March will come sooner and I don't have to feel the constant need to be doing some work anymore. For now, I have to settle the police permit (girl, please let me know if my proposal is fine), get back to the lady in charge of our application at Tote Board and do the Adidas thing. And I should probably do the minutes of today's meeting by tomorrow.

But well! I'm telling myself that this will be all worth it. So yeah, Kat, you hang in there too. You're probably more tired than any of us. LOL.

*****

Note to self: I must enjoy myself next week.

This song has been in my head all night. ANYBODY HAVE THIS SONG CAN SEND IT TO ME PLEASE? PLEASE PLEASE? So that I can listen and it won't be stuck in my head. ):


I guess Britney's new video sort of resembles her Toxic one... But whatever. At least she looks hot again. And sane. LOL.

This calls for a brief update since my previous entries were either memes (which were quite fail since everyone basically ignores me, LOL. next time i will just do and not attempt to ask anyone to do it.) or rants about school.

I am both happy and sad that:

1. HL209 essay has been postponed to next Friday. Yay because it's postponed. Woe because it's postponed (means that I will procrastinate). KAT PLEASE SHARE SOME MOTIVATION THAT YOU ARE FEELING NOW.

2. It is going to be exams in about one month's time. This semester has flew by unbelievably fast. I can't even keep track of what's happening. So yay because holidays is coming again, woe because exams are coming even sooner.

3. I am fangirl-ing over DBSK instead of doing my work. OMG. Stop...please. Yay because...shit I have no idea what's there to be happy about, but I just have a fun time watching the boys. This is bad. Woe because...well I can't exactly write about DBSK during exams, right? Or in my essays? This is a super x100 bad timing to have a new subject to fangirl.

Note to self: stop....or I will slap you. (Now we're turning all schizo!)

And I feel like I haven't been to the movies for a damn long time. The last movie I watched was... Painted Skin? And it was all lol and random.

I am definitely looking forward to the holidays. And during the holidays, I will be looking forward to school reopening. And the cycle continues.

I am kind of worried that I won't be able to finish what I have to. Well you can say that I'm on schedule 'cause I've studied and did my online quiz for CS100 already. AND THAT WAS ANNOYING BECAUSE I SCORED ONLY 12.5 OUT OF 15. >:( Now all I have to do, is to get the last meeting's minutes done up and mass emailed, try to finish Sour Sweet, do my Spanish assignment, email KHL, start on the proposal to be sent to Chronicle and maybe read the poems for HL207 so that I will know what's going in lecture on Monday. Sounds do-able if I stop getting distracted and doing all sorts of nonsense instead. (:

Finally met up with Lydia this week after 5 billion years have passed. Nat and I were supposed to celebrate her birthday with her and her birthday was like what, 23rd August? LOL.

Okay life is EXTREMELY BORING now. Can't wait for the recess break. Oh wait. But that'll probably be spent working on assignments and other stuff that needs to be done. I want to go for a high tea buffet though. After talking about it the other day. (: ANYBODY UP FOR IT? JUST THINK OF ALL THE DESSERTS AND CAKES AND WHATEVER ELSE THERE IS.

And this is a bad time to start watching Gossip Girl and ANTM and 篮球火. Not to mention Code Blue that I've left hanging at some episode that I can't remember is what. Ugh why didn't Gossip Girl and ANTM start showing during the holidays. !@#$%^&*

Add/Drop period is over, and sad to say, I didn't manage to get the module that I wanted. Despite me having the STARS planner page on whenever I'm online and refreshing it when I remember to. LOL. Oh well, life's never fair. Guess I'll just have to try again next semester!

Last week was...a blur. Not that it passed so fast that it was a blur, but I just have no idea what I did. LOL. It was Welcome Week in school and I spent my free time in school at my CCA booth. I *think* we were supposed to be like actively pulling people off their way to lectures and tutorials, but somehow we just sort of... I don't know, sat there and talked among ourselves? LOL. Or when we were too sleepy in the morning or too tired later on to talk, we just sat there, fanned ourselves, and tried to do some reading. Hahahaha. Not our fault okay. The heat was so overwhelming that we didn't feel like doing anything but just sat there. But...! People still came and asked about us, so it wasn't a total failure. Yay. Hahaha. I know, like still dare to say right.

So, third week of school. Now, I feel like school has officially started.

Oh and guess what?! I think I'm behind in my readings already! LOL.

(The Patriarch, anyone? I haven't even finish one-quarter of it and I think Prof Koh is already moving on to Memories of a Nonya this week. OMG.)
 
Edit:

I almost forgot. After 2 weeks of taking public transport to school, I realised I'm generally okay with it. Just that I don't understand SMRT's system.

During the morning peak hour, they have trains that will stop at Yishun. (I'm supposed to take to Jurong East.) So for example, I missed a train. The next one comes in 3 minutes, and will 'terminate at Yishun'. Means I cannot take it. I have to take the next one, which comes in 5 minutes after the Yishun train leaves. Meaning I waited...8 minutes for a train...during PEAK HOUR?! And the dumb thing is the Yishun train is quite empty because most people's destinations are after Yishun. So end up even MORE PEOPLE squeezed into the train towards JE ('cause more people come up the platform as time passes). I wonder if SMRT knows about this.

Similarly for the evening peak hour, when I want to take train at JE, they have trains that terminate at Yew Tee or something. When alot of people are taking to places like Woodlands, Yishun, Ang Mo Kio to go home. *faints

OMG.

I JUST REALISED I MISSED THE APPEAL DEADLINE FOR GERPE/UEs. I THOUGHT IT WAS THE ENTIRE ADD/DROP PERIOD. SO IT WAS ONLY FOR THAT FEW DAYS???

DAMN.

DAMN. DAMN. DAMN.

A little update since school just started today. (:

Well let's see, I certainly rested well enough for the start of school today! LOL. Since I quitted my job in June. Met up with people whom I should meet up. Slept for as much as I wanted. Went online for as long as I wanted. Pretty much doing what I want since I was so free. Haha. My last weekend before the new semester starts was....not too great, I would say. I was actually looking forward to the NDP preview that XJ had asked me and Cher along. But due to unforseen circumstances, we had to forgo the preview. ): QUITE SAD. 一场欢喜一场空. Okay maybe not so serious, LOL, but I was really looking forward to it.

First lecture today was interesting. Though it's quite difficult to pay full attention for 2 hours (okay okay, 1 and a half today) without a short break. Especially when Nat keeps nodding off beside me. I think the sleepiness is contagious and I had to try to fight it. I succeeded in fighting it today though. (: Hahaha. But then again, it might be because it was only 1 and a half hrs today. Add/drop period just started. I really need to get that Spanish module on Tuesday/Thursday to make my time table...normal. LOL.

Red Cliff today with Nat! It was another exciting movie! My poor heart can't take it any longer. LOL. And Zhuge Liang is so smart! I realised how little I know about China's history. So I read it up a bit on Wikipedia (though I'm not sure how accurate it is but guess I just read for the rough idea). I don't really see what's the big deal about the movie not following historical documentation EXACTLY. Since it's a movie...I mean, it's also got to be audience-friendly right? (In order to be box-office-friendly? Haha.) So I don't see it as a crime for them to hype up the plot and figures to make things more exciting. And sure, perhaps the characters are like, not what everyone have in mind. (I mean those who actually know those historical characters and what they're supposed to be like.) But the actors and actresses are people too. I'm sure they themselves have the characters in their mind and in my opinion, how they want to portray their characters should be up to them. Though difference in character portrayal is one thing, lousy acting is another. Hahahaa. I can't wait for the second part!

Okay, I'm quite lazy to blog nowadays. Seems like when I have things to say, I end up not knowing where to start.

Well, I guess my previous entry did sound like I was being really angry. Oops, guess my tone was too sarcastic and harsh. I do apologise for that. My sarcasm tends to go overboard sometimes in my entries.

You know, actually I think we all know that the school has tried to help and all. And I did acknowledge in my previous entry that Priya was being really nice to email us and help. It was unexpected (because we thought they would KNOW) and...well, kind of her to do so. I mean, she could have just left us all to die for the semester.

But while we're all aware that it's impossible to change things overnight (like the system and all), I think it doesn't change the feeling of frustration. Not that we're ungrateful, not that we don't recognise help when it's thrown in our faces. But more of... Not being able to do anything about it pretty much sucks. As much as we understand the difficulty and acknowledge all that has been done to help us, it's really not that easy to sit back and just wait and see.

Edit: I almost forgot! XJ told me SR is having some charity run on 2nd Aug. It's a Saturday. Run 1km, raise a dollar. Anybody want to go with me??