So as you can see from the previous post, I have an essay due soon. Plus Susan just emailed to tell us that our assignment is due this week too. (Hmm I wonder if we still need to do the web page and print ad since she never said anything, but w/e.) BUT I CAN'T SEEM TO GET MOTIVATED. I don't know why, but everytime at this time of the semester, when there are many things due, I'll feel the urge to start on dramas. LMAO. When I'm super darn free during the holidays, I don't feel the drama itch. I can laze around all holiday without watching anything. WHY IS THIS SO, SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME. I want to smack myself sometimes for doing this.

So this is what I did for the weekend:
- tutored a kid
- watched all currently up-ed 6 episodes of Glee.
- rot online.
- went out with my family.

and for today:
- rot online.
- watched 2 episodes of Black & White.
- tried to look for relevant articles for my essay.
- took a nap for 2 hours.
- did intro for my essay.

In between all the nonsense that I did, I tried to read Capricornia, but I keep getting distracted. So its a big fail so far. HELP. T_T I feel screwed, but I need to do something about it. LOL.

Saw this on Tumblr, which I thought was really nice:
Awww. I wish I was beautiful, be it inside or out.

We Are Seven

—A simple child,
That lightly draws its breath,
And feels its life in every limb,
What should it know of death?

I met a little cottage girl:
She was eight years old, she said;
Her hair was thick with many a curl
That clustered round her head.

She had a rustic, woodland air,
And she was wildly clad;
Her eyes were fair, and very fair;
—Her beauty made me glad.

"Sisters and brothers, little maid,
How many may you be?"
"How many? Seven in all," she said,
And wondering looked at me.

"And where are they? I pray you tell."
She answered, "Seven are we;
And two of us at Conway dwell,
And two are gone to sea.

"Two of us in the churchyard lie,
My sister and my brother;
And in the churchyard cottage, I
Dwell near them with my mother."

"You say that two at Conway dwell,
And two are gone to sea,
Yet ye are seven! — I pray you tell,
Sweet maid, how this may be."

Then did the little maid reply,
"Seven boys and girls are we;
Two of us in the churchyard lie,
Beneath the churchyard tree."

"You run about, my little maid,
Your limbs they are alive;
If two are in the churchyard laid,
Then ye are only five."

"Their graves are green, they may be seen,"
The little maid replied,
"Twelve steps or more from my mother's door,
And they are side by side.

"My stockings there I often knit,
My kerchief there I hem;
And there upon the ground I sit,
And sing a song to them.

"And often after sunset, sir,
When it is light and fair,
I take my little porringer,
And eat my supper there.

"The first that died was sister Jane;
In bed she moaning lay,
Till God released her of her pain;
And then she went away.

"So in the churchyard she was laid;
And, when the grass was dry,
Together round her grave we played,
My brother John and I.

"And when the ground was white with snow,
And I could run and slide,
My brother John was forced to go,
And he lies by her side."

"How many are you, then," said I,
"If they two are in heaven?"
Quick was the little maid's reply,
"O master! we are seven."

"But they are dead; those two are dead!
Their spirits are in heaven!"
'T was throwing words away; for still
The little maid would have her will,
And say, "Nay, we are seven!"

-- William Wordsworth

Just thought of this poem again, I have no idea why.

第三话： 失去

最近，一个茫然脆弱的声音冷不防的问自己：

你在害怕失去什么？ 失去你最心爱的洋娃娃； 失去你已得不到的一段初恋； 失去你已失去的纯真笑容...

在一点一滴的失去当中，你自以为拥有的，不过是一具面目全非的青春尸骸罢了...


- 静的秘密日记, 爱沙17 (Bump Off Lover)

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I feel like watching this drama all over again. Or Mars.

Nothing much in particular, just that I watched the first episode of Season 2 of Gossip Girl. YAY. (:

( xoxo )

LOL. Can't wait for the next episode! (: And I guess you can tell that I love Blair. Haha.

WORK HAS FINALLY ENDED.

Everybody congratulate me please. I survived the one month there. I don't want to abuse myself so I decided not to continue with the second month. And who knows, SF might have meetings...right? -nudges Kat- HAHAHAHA. But okay, being a typical Sagittarian, I zhao the first chance I get since I'm not enjoying it.  I tolerated for one month, but enough is enough.

During this one month working at a call centre:

- I gained weight. (This is too bloody obvious.)
- I broke down twice in public because I really felt very 委屈. (Damn embarrassing I tell you.)
- I realised I should be nicer the next time I get calls from strangers.
- I saw how rude some Singaporeans can be.
- I saw how nice some Singaporeans can be.
- I saw how ungrateful some Singaporeans can be.
- I saw how thankful some Singaporeans can be.
- I learnt how to deal with nasty customers on the phone by being in control of the calls.
- I learnt not to let nasty customers saying very nasty stuff get to me.
- I now know that I cannot stand companies with illogical rules that everyone else around me is following blindly.

Now I've got one more month before school reopens, don't know how I'm going to spend my time. I don't really want to rot at home, but it would be difficult to find a job for just one month. (I did thought of this problem when I quitted my job at the call centre, but I think the desire to leave that place won me over.)

Looking forward to next week though! (:

Tagged by Kai Yim.

1. Pick up the nearest book (of at least 123 pages).
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the next three sentences.
5. Tag five people.

This week has been very slack. LOL. I can finally slack without feeling guilty about it, since exams are over and I have alot of time to spare and I haven't find a job and I'm still not sick of my sloth-like life yet.


Further proof that I have plenty of time, I finished Proposal Daisakusen. ("Hallelujah Chance!") I know I'm slow and that this show has been for some time and that many people have watched it already...But I rarely have the motivation to start on new dramas unless I'm certain I have plenty of time, like now! I love the drama and OMG the main guy is super CUTE please. (: And does anybody know the title of the song that played from Ken's cd and later, some tape?? Okay I don't know if you all even know what I'm talking about. Hahaha. Because I can't get enough of that guy, I've started on Nobuta Wo Produce. LOL. And I realised that of all the Japanese dramas that I've seen, I liked most of them. There isn't one Jdrama that I start and stop halfway without completing. And sometimes I wish I can understand what they're saying without relying on the subtitles. Sigh.

A quick post before I continue with my HL103 essay.

Yesterday was my first time staying in school on a Friday until 8 plus at night. LOL. Usually I try to rush off asap, I mean..its a Friday! But yeah, because of the BHG Bazaar, I stayed. LOL. Somemore yesterday only had one tutorial at 11.30am, HL211 lecture was an e-lecture. Speaking of which, I should probably take a look at the e-lecture. Haha. I keep forgetting about it. Anyway, it was super tiring yesterday. Probably because I did the handling of bags from about 10am to 6.30pm, with only a tutorial in between? I couldn't think straight when I was trying to do my essay last night. Which is why I gave up at around 2.30am and went off to sleep. Haha. And PMS is damn scary for me lah. When I was doing my duty yesterday after lesson, all of a sudden I just felt damn depressed, for no reason at all. /: But I still continued doing 'cause I was afraid there wasn't people to do it. After a while, I know I was going to burst into tears any moment and I was just, "OMG shit shit shit. Not here please. Ahhh." LOL! I quickly rushed to the toilet so that people won't think that I'm a freak. I think the fact that I was too damn tired from the previous two days, and that I didn't had lunch, contributed to the freak moment. So after that I bought some apple juice and then chocolate. It helped a little. Still depressed, but at least I didn't feel like crying anymore. HAHAHA. I only felt more like myself when the bazaar ended and we went to get some proper food for dinner. So that was my 'eventful' yesterday. LOL.

And today! Tsk. So much for wanting to finish my essay by afternoon. I woke up past noon I think. So like, hmmm not very possible to finish my essay by afternoon since I've only did one more paragraph in addition to my introduction which I did a few days ago? Haha. I ended up doing a bit more of my essay, and then I watched Atonement. Oh well, at least Atonement was freaking good, IMO. Haha! I wrote a bit more of my essay, and then I had dinner and watched Daredevil on Channel 5. /: I really should die. Now I will get back to my essay, and hopefully it will be done before I sleep. Hahaha.

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解脱 是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔
我总会实现一个梦

LOL!! I saw that sentence in one of the articles in the latest issue of NTU's The Nanyang Chronicle. For some reason, I was really amused by that. It might be the stress.

Okay time to start on my assignment for HW111.