So, the recess week is over. Just like that. I don't even recall doing anything concrete. I didn't stay by youtube the entire day... I didn't watch alot of stuff... But I don't think I did alot of work either. So what the hell did I do? OMG I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA.

Then last night, a terrible case of insomnia struck. Like, usually the moment I lie down I only take 5 minutes, or the maximum around 10-15 minutes to fall asleep? Well last night I couldn't sleep until 4 plus, I was just tossing and turning in bed non-stop. It was sucky, if you're wondering how insomnia felt.

Maybe looking through my schedule book/diary right before bedtime isn't a good idea.

I closed my eyes and all I could think of is:
- I need to complete my 207 essay ASAP.
- Oh no shit I haven't revise my Spanish.
- This Friday got CS100 mid-term test.
- KHL haven't get back to me!! (Okay finally the person replied me, just. LOL.)
- Police permit not done yet! Mental note to myself: get template from either Kat or Jia En.
- Need to draft another proposal/invitation to Tribune.
- Spanish test in 2 weeks!
- Got lots of reading to do.
- I hope 209 essay deadline won't clash with the week where I have to hand in 213 essay and have Spanish listening and oral test (yes same week).

How to sleep like that, you tell me?

A quick post before I continue with my HL103 essay.

Yesterday was my first time staying in school on a Friday until 8 plus at night. LOL. Usually I try to rush off asap, I mean..its a Friday! But yeah, because of the BHG Bazaar, I stayed. LOL. Somemore yesterday only had one tutorial at 11.30am, HL211 lecture was an e-lecture. Speaking of which, I should probably take a look at the e-lecture. Haha. I keep forgetting about it. Anyway, it was super tiring yesterday. Probably because I did the handling of bags from about 10am to 6.30pm, with only a tutorial in between? I couldn't think straight when I was trying to do my essay last night. Which is why I gave up at around 2.30am and went off to sleep. Haha. And PMS is damn scary for me lah. When I was doing my duty yesterday after lesson, all of a sudden I just felt damn depressed, for no reason at all. /: But I still continued doing 'cause I was afraid there wasn't people to do it. After a while, I know I was going to burst into tears any moment and I was just, "OMG shit shit shit. Not here please. Ahhh." LOL! I quickly rushed to the toilet so that people won't think that I'm a freak. I think the fact that I was too damn tired from the previous two days, and that I didn't had lunch, contributed to the freak moment. So after that I bought some apple juice and then chocolate. It helped a little. Still depressed, but at least I didn't feel like crying anymore. HAHAHA. I only felt more like myself when the bazaar ended and we went to get some proper food for dinner. So that was my 'eventful' yesterday. LOL.

And today! Tsk. So much for wanting to finish my essay by afternoon. I woke up past noon I think. So like, hmmm not very possible to finish my essay by afternoon since I've only did one more paragraph in addition to my introduction which I did a few days ago? Haha. I ended up doing a bit more of my essay, and then I watched Atonement. Oh well, at least Atonement was freaking good, IMO. Haha! I wrote a bit more of my essay, and then I had dinner and watched Daredevil on Channel 5. /: I really should die. Now I will get back to my essay, and hopefully it will be done before I sleep. Hahaha.

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解脱 是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔
我总会实现一个梦

Just the thought of the essays and assignments that I have makes me feel really tired. I guess for the next few weeks, its going to be nothing but school. I've got essays to write, presentations to prepare for, and readings to do.

19th March, Wednesday- HL103 Presentation
20th March, Thursday- HL205 Essay due

26th March, Wednesday- BHG Bazaar
27th March, Thursday- BHG Bazaar, HW111 Presentation
28th March, Friday- BHG Bazaar

1st April, Tuesday- HL103 Essay due
4th April, Friday- HL211 Essay due

I know that there's definitely time to finish everything, but still, I can't help but be slightly overwhelmed.

I am worried because:
I am behind in my readings, especially for HL103, which I haven't read anything this semester.
the quality of my essays are bad. I am so shallow in my analysis sometimes most of the time.
I have skipped quite a number of lectures and tutorials this semester.
I missed HL205 quiz yesterday, and the first one I took was so bad that I won't be surprised if I get a zero. HL211's quiz was bad too.
I am so slack this semester.

And I don't even want to think of the exams now. Please wish me all the best, people. Thanks.

I hate it when a close friend wants to say something about me, yet says it so ambiguously. So I'm left wondering what was it that you were trying to say. Maybe it was obvious, just that I was too dense to get it. But I would rather you tell me in the face clearly and honestly as to what the heck you mean, so that I don't have to guess around, in my mind no less. This has happened before, and again, I guess it was a trivial matter/comment to everyone present. Ah its me being over-sensitive again, it must be the stress. Still, it sucked having to pretend that I wasn't a little affected. And I'm sorry if I'm not as nice as I look, but I can't help the way I look, right?

Actually I really should not mind so much as to what people say about me, but I get quite uptight when its people who matter saying those stuff. Unfortunately. ):

Just a random post before I sleep. Nothing much to update, but I just felt like posting an entry. I'm not in a very good mood, because of a few reasons. Its mostly about the parents and largely because its the time of the month I guess. So yeah, when its the time of the month, its also the time of the month for me to wallow in self-pity. But since its late now, and the living room's lights are still switched on, I got to make this fast before the parents wake up and see me still awake. Which would mean the nagging will not end. So yay. You guys are saved from my ranting and all the self-pity shit that's in my head.

I went shopping with Xiao Ji and Cher just now. Or rather, Xiao Ji shopped while Cher and I looked on and attempted but failed terribly to shop. Not much stuff caught my eye, and those that did were a little out of my budget. I can't afford to spend alot, and many clothes that I saw would look better on skinny people too. So I didn't buy anything in the end. I was a little sad because I really wanted to buy something. But oh well. I seriously wish for a day when I can just have a shopping spree and don't have to feel the pinch on my wallet. Guess that will have to wait till I start working. 

Next week's going to be busy!